a concession at milestone

That day, i finally realized that how one loses his mind while taking an exception to the situation, unfavourable, that is ..
                      You see, getting angry is a normal thing, to feel enraged about something is considered as a natural emotion of human nature (i don't know if aliens have it). It mainly demonstrates the person with that particular emotion holds revolt, protest and say "enmity" for the specific situation his hemmed in.I'm not here talking Psychology but something more like a "revelation" to me (trust me, forewarned is forearmed, but it was kinda bit late for me).It was like a disclosure, from which, i'd been afraid all my life.I heard cases (like, i'd feel pity, yeah) about it and i always had an "optimism" about me that i'd never be able to perceive that in my own case but i hoped wrong 'til that day.I always wanted to be different in every manner from normal human.I even felt distinguished at times from everyone, even though, i just wasn't any of that.It was just, due to my "make-believe" imagination which covered the Colossus part of my mind.Let's just say, i wasn't even close to what i thought.
         i was just prolly a "wannabe" about it that i apprehended after taking quite of time (but it's never too late to cut your losses and move on).But now, there are some things; finally, opened up to me; never under-estimate the ones around you and never over-estimate yourself over your acquaintances (this point is implied for everyone out-there) 'cause sometimes, it's too early to say anything.Your beliefs can deceit you 'cause you can't be certain about nothing (not even yourself).You just got to hold-up unless you discover yourself painstakingly (includes even the bits and pieces of yourself).
        So, i tell you, those emotions (the ones i've been talking about in the preceding) made me learn that, i still had to discover myself.I used to have a stereotype of me in my mind and i believed it but i guess, i was wrong and yet, i've that bright-side standing by my side that it's never too late.I can still drudge on it but lately, i smoked out on that, i'm comprised of the paradox, one of the seven deadly sins as they say and that's "wrath".
                                   All she wanted was, me to abandon and halt the flowing of my precious time down the drain, but on the consequences of her more like aggressive and diligent behaviour (diligent for been so hyper about this thing) i kept gazing at her in a grimace giving way and i was on the verge of been the flame, like she was prompting me more to be in that way and i almost could have spilled out "get out of my way" but i heard some whispers within me; it was my conscience giving me nudges, waking me up from the nightmare to abstain what i was about to do, telling me to lay down my arms, give it up, to halt right there.It was my mum, standing right before my eyes Goddamn it ! and how moronic of me to scowl at her !
                                       But thanks to my morals for the remedy of my conscience-stricken brains in the next split second and i faced-down on her very question "what are you staring at?" and i just left the room the very minute.
                I went for my quarantine to break-free from certain thoughts and ofcourse, i got disappointed in myself, that i finally flabbergasted myself with something i shouldn't have done; i baffled myself up with something i never dreamed of.It was like, breaking a covenant with ownself about whom you were convinced that you'd never let go of it but as ill-luck would have it, you just did.
But like i said, there's always a brightside (pardon for its too much usage, nothing fits in lieu of it) and it's never too late to realize something and wrath has both sides too.
                                                      It's time to hunt and do bang-up job with it.